Tara Louise

Its been on my mind for awhile that im really home sick, and I mean alot. Im so tired of being in these forign countries....I WANT TO GO TO THE AMERICAS! Im so ready to go home and start my life off with Matt, get a car, get my own appartment and be an adult and not have to worry about being looked after. Yeah its nice not having to pay bills, but how am I going to learn if I don't do it my self. I just want to go a bigger step. And its not just that I want to do things for myself, Im missing out on my whole family....Kat is having her baby in a week, Ashlie is leaving for bootcamp and I can't be there to help her out and support her and Desi, Im missing everybodys birthdays, I missed the holidays again which really sucked, by the time I get back in cali, i'll have missed Christina's, Brittany's and Johnjohn's whole school year. All I want to do is come home and never leave again.

Yeah so here I am back on this reched ship called the USS Essex. WOW, I have never been so bored in my life. All I do is just sit at work for over 12hrs doing nothing but watching movies all day. Matt and I can't even hang out alone anywhere because there isn't anywhere to hang out. It sucks so bad, we get to see eachother but we don't get to hug, hold hands, kiss, pretty much all we can do is talk to eachother. Im so glad that we're getting to Guam today, Matt and I will actually have so time together alone ;).